Memories...

어떡하죠

Date: Tuesday, February 9, 2010 || Time: 11:31 AM

어떡하죠 - 지선

그댄 너무 당연한듯
오늘 내게 안부를 묻네요

난 그저 잘지낸다했죠
그댄 정말 날 너무 모르죠

그대없이도 내가 괜찮을것 같나요
그대는 나 없이 괜찮나요

당신없는 세상이 너무도 힘들어서
숨쉬는 나를 원망했죠

어떡하죠 아직도 난
그대 한마디에 부셔지는
하루를 살아요
그대내게 말해봐요

이러는게 나뿐인지
그대도 나처럼 하루가 아프고 또 아픈지
말해봐요

그대와 난

이미 너무 늦었나요 우리
다시 기회는 없나요

난 아직 그대 생각해요
그댄 아마 알지도 모르죠...

결국 이런건가요 이렇게 끝인가요
그대는 이대로 괜찮나요

난 안될 것 같은데
그대같은 사랑을 죽어도 내겐 없을텐데

어떡하죠 내 마음은
그대 아니면 누구도 안아줄수 없을텐데
제발 나를 잡아줘요
알잖아요 나란 사람 아무리 애써도
그대를 지울수가 없단걸
제발 나를 잡아줘요

어떡하죠 아직도 난
그대 한마디에 부서지는 하루를 살아요
그대 내게 말해봐요

이러는게 나뿐인지
그대도 나처럼 하루가 아프고 또 아픈지
말해봐요

그대와 난 이미 너무 늦었나요
우리 다시 기회는 없나요

난 아직 그댈생각해요
그댄 아마 알지도 모르죠

双面人

Date: Tuesday, February 2, 2010 || Time: 11:42 AM

对于自认不能成为朋友的人，

我似乎没有办法放开自己，

特别冷淡⋯

不知是好是坏⋯

总之⋯不够主动吧，

有点儿孤僻⋯

但是对于要好的朋友，

我却特别热情友善⋯

放不开吧⋯

情人节要到了，实在没有什么意义⋯

新年也要到了，不习惯没有家人的新年⋯

有种预感，我又要变回高二时候的自己了⋯

迷失

Date: Monday, February 1, 2010 || Time: 1:46 AM

有时侯觉得，

自己都不是很清楚自己是个什么样儿的人。

有时侯觉得，

很多烦恼，

相对来说，

无比的微不足道。

Date: Friday, January 29, 2010 || Time: 10:07 AM

ひとりで死んじゃうかも

泣かないにした日々

just thinking...

Date: Thursday, January 28, 2010 || Time: 10:26 AM

i shld learn to love and cherish those around me...

much more than i do now...

是否又如何

Date: Tuesday, January 19, 2010 || Time: 1:55 PM

你不是真正的快乐

五月天

人群中哭著你只想變成透明的顏色

你再也不會夢或痛或心動了
你已經決定了你已經決定了

你靜靜忍著緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜就是越傷人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深淺淺的刀割

你不是真正的快樂
你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

這世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則不是你的選擇
于是你含著眼淚飄飄蕩蕩跌跌撞撞地走著

你不是真正的快樂
你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂
你的傷從不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了然后才后悔著

你不是真正的快樂
你的笑只是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼

你不是真正的快樂
你的傷從不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左側卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了

你值得真正的快樂
你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什么失去了還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓悲傷全部結束在此刻
重新開始活著

心⋯

封闭了。

Appreciation

Date: || Time: 10:03 AM

Gotta Be Somebody
Nickelback

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life,

The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren't enough
So I'll be waiting for the real thing
I'll know it by the feeling
The moment when we're meeting

will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen

So I'll be holding my own breath right up 'til the end
Until that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

'Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There's gotta be somebody for me like that

'Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they're not alone
There's somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There's gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And you know this feels too right
It's just like déjà vu
Me standing here with you

So I'll be holding my own breath, could this be the end?
Is it that moment when I find the one that I'll spend forever with

*

You can't give up, looking for a diamond in the rough
You never know when it shows up
Make sure you're holding on
'Cause it could be the one, the one you're waiting on

*

This winter break has changed so many things.

I've learnt much from the trip too. =)

sometimes, i feel that

we never seem to be able to truly appreciate the things we have in life,

until we've lost them.

it's just so easy for us to take them for granted.

We take for granted that our friends will always be there for us,

we take for granted that our friends will always forgive us,

we take for granted the smiles of our friends around us,

we take for granted the little acts of kindness shown to us by those who care,

we take for granted the company we have,

we take for granted everything we FEEL, should be there and will always be there.

why do we always do stupid things like that?

if we know we'll regret saying something to someone,

why say it?

if we know that we'll regret doing something,

why do it?

what's so difficult about it?

..........

One day while stoning on the car on our way to some place,

i suddenly realized that,

if i were to be caught in a one-sided love r/s,

i'll rather be the one that's hurt,

than the one hurting the other.

The other girls didn't seem to agree though...

..........

and i also realized,

that i needed a guy who could be patient enough with me,

someone who could interpret my questions correctly,

someone who could give me satisfactory answers.

'coz i'm a girl who thinks a lot and worries a lot,

and it wouldn't help if my bf's someone who jumps to conclusions about me,

'coz that means he doesn't understand me,

and that he couldn't see things from my perspective.

..........

the trip was physically and emotionally draining,

but no pain no gain right?

it is, without a doubt, going to be one of the most memorable winter trips ever,

really appreciate those who were with me on the trip,

coz everyone of them was important

in making this part of my memories ever so precious...